I had a follow-up ultrasound yesterday before work. I know when you are going through fertility treatment, you are supposed to be realistic about the progression of the treatment., but it is harder than you'd think. I'm not the most optimistic of people, but in this situation, I am so hopeful and optimistic, almost just so I can be let down. I was given the rundown. I know "some PCOS patients don't respond well with Clomid, so if one a day doesn't work, we'll switch to two, then try three before moving onto hormone shots." I still got hopeful I'd be that lucky one who had an easier time.
The ultrasound hurt. They always hurt. I know I'll have to get used to them, but they make me nauseous and I just want to roll up into a ball. Hubbs wasn't there for the last two, so I didn't even get a hand to squeeze. I did have some good growth in my uterine lining, and *some* follicle improvement. My right side looked like nothing was going on at all, but my left ovary had four little follicles trying to mature for me. I go in again Monday, for yet another painful ultrasound. If the follicles aren't mature enough or my lining is too thick, I have to be bled out and start again at a stronger dose of Clomid (i.e. I'll try this all again in like 3 weeks...). If the follicles are mature enough and my lining is not too thick, I'll be scheduled to ovulate Thursday (my birthday) or Friday. Obviously we all know which way I lean, and why I'll be just a little extra disappointed when I probably have to start over Monday.
In the meantime, a few great things have happened, or are about to happen.
First off, I've been biking a lot. I biked home from work, nine miles, mostly uphill, then back to work the following afternoon. I plan on biking to work at least once a week for as long as I can. I took a lovely route through Mission Hills and through Presidio Park, and I really enjoyed the time to just relax and think and look at beauty and see some of my goals literally before my eyes.
Second thing, I made a lovely tee, which I wore on one of these bike rides. It is a bright yellow ribbed cotton knit poncho-cut tee. The ribbing is horizontal, and there is a small seam on either side to create some armhole v. waist effect to stabilize the otherwise totally open top. I love it. I plan on making more. I'll post pictures after I wash it (I wore it three days last week, it was that amazing!).
Third thing is I bought some really cute maternity clothes on clearnace. I spent just over $20 for $70 worth of stuff. I got a couple of tank tops for wearing under stuff, a pair of black knit pants with a high tummy panel, and I bought a really pretty blue ruffley top. I got everything big enough that they should fit no problem at least the majority of my eventual pregnancy.
Next thing is my birthday is Thursday. I know I already said this, but I'm just very excited. I am pretty sure it will be fairly uneventful and low-key, unfortunately, because my hubbs has been too busy with work to plan anything for me really, but I will make due. I always go super all out for his, and he never wants me to. This year I explained that 364 days out of the year I like low-key, but on my birthday I want to feel like a princess. I want to be waited on hand-and-foot, and I want friends and family to suddenly appear, and want to hang out, and treat me to a great, eventful, celebratory day. I think this has only happen twice or three times in my life. Oh well. One can wish. I bought a cute birthday dress, either way.
Lastly, but certainly not leastly, I am on VACATION starting Monday. No responsibilities except those I impose on myself. Sleep. Beach. Gym. Sewing. Sewing. More sewing. Hiking. More Sewing. Movies. Acai Sorbet and smoothies. Vacation.
I still have a couple of work days left, chock-full of responsibility, but I had a pretty good week, so I think I'll get through the weekend successfully! Hopefully Monday goes well.
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